Happy Mother's Day!
No. 84 Oh, hi there.
Good morning!
I’ll be honest. I was not sure how I would feel about writing on this day today. This year so far has been a wild ride of emotions, experiences, and exhaustion. However, the sun is shining, which is perfection, and I knew that I wanted to write something. As the writers know, it’s best to write what you know.
I have had a wide-range of emotions about this day approaching for the last several months. From various levels of frustration, anger, sadness, and confusion to where I am today which is more in the realm of usually OK and somewhat calm. I am not (yet) a mother. And it hurts like whoah.
But I have dealt with harder things. I have dealt with more troubling times. The strongest mother in the world raised me. So it would be criminal to not acknowledge that her strength, passion, and general awesomeness is what is giving me the motivation, and inspiration, to continue on this journey (as much as that phrase irks me) with hope.
I have had a hard time opening this laptop to write because I wasn’t entirely sure what would come out. Honesty is the best policy and what I’ve seen from other writers on this platform is that their best work, the pieces I read from start to finish, are filled with real life moments, emotions, and thoughts on their present-day experiences.
This weekend is the 2-year anniversary of when we adopted Pepper! She is the happiest pup and brings us immense joy and laughter every single day. She loves to run, sniff everything, watch TV, be near us all of the time, play with her dog friends, play with her toys, and be the most kind, loving dog at every moment. She is the best.
Pepper’s middle name (yes, my dog has a middle name) is Lottie which I say is ‘short’ for Lottery because we felt like we won when we got her. She is superb. Even when she begs for early dinner and wakes us up too early. It’s just because she’s so excited for every moment of her life and loves us so much. The epitome of Carpe Diem if you ask me. :)
Happy Mother’s Day to all of the incredible moms I know which is a list too long to write. My mom, my sister, my mother-in-law, my grandmothers, my aunts, my friends who have become moms, and all of the other moms I know swirling around this world. You are magnificent and I see you doing the most every single day. I am here cheering you on and am always in your corner.
I am so grateful for this gorgeous morning. The weather around here has been pretty rough lately so I am hoping today is a turning point for the rain-to-sun ratio. Everything is so green, thanks to rain, but now we need abundant sunshine so that the rest of us can thrive as well.
This day has made me feel every feeling for many years as I never knew how to deal with a day that was for a specific group that I wasn’t part of, but possibly should be. Last year, I remember taking a Mother’s Day-theme ride on my Peloton, but basically sobbing through its entirety. It was a good ride with great music. However, I knew that it wasn’t filled with the happy kind of tears.
So here we are, one year later, and it is Mother’s Day once again. Nothing has changed. I am confident in the path that I want to be on, but am not quite yet. It is hard and painful at times. I may stay away from social media today.
I hope it’s a beautiful Sunday wherever you are today. We’re going to walk Pepper, get outside, be grateful for what we do have, and be hopeful for the future.
Love,
Mollie
[Next week: chatting about seeing friends from long ago and my feelings on live bands (hint: they’re the best).]